Free falling

Hello again! Thank you for being patient with my post today. This one was supposed to mimic one of my favorite writers. So I chose Chuck Palahniuk, not sure if I got his style quite right. But he loves to play with form with his narrative so I just tried my best. Please enjoy. 

I was falling.

Literally falling, not like how people have started to corrupt the word.

I mean I just jumped from an airplane with no parachute. That was a bit stupid you might say but I thought it was my only option. When there is nothing left in this world for you death is the only thing you have left. I used to be successful. Money, power, love I had it all for what seems like a fleeting moment. I knew it would happen but not so soon. All of it was taken away, that is what you get when you mess with the wrong people. Enough with the depressing stuff; I would rather spend the last couple minutes of my life thinking of happy moments.

People always talk about your life flashing before your eyes when you are in a near death experience. What they don’t tell you is that it is the only time your can actually see your birth for the very first time. You can’t remember a thing that happened before two years old can you? These are what come back now. When you are about to die. Kind of makes a full circle. These memories are probably the most happy I have ever been. I was born innocent like everyone else and until I was cognitively aware of my situation.

I was destined for failure from the beginning. My family was always on the wrong side of the truth. Everything that came out of our mouths was a lie but people believed it because it was what they wanted to hear. Everyone lies; you do even to your own mother. For me it was the other way around that is where I picked it up. Our livelihood was to lie that is how we survived in this cruel world. Yes we were conman but then you shouldn’t believe everything you hear. If it is to good to be true generally it is.

Life is hard where I am from. So I had to learn quickly; whether it was to distract or reel them in with my cuteness. I had my part in the family we all did, even my sisters.

That isn’t here nor there.

I was different from everyone else. I wanted more, so much more. I didn’t want to live like a poor idiot living from con to con. So I studied and learned and then Charles found me so good he wanted to make me great. That is where the fun began. Bigger longer cons with better payouts, I have never been so alive. Pyramid schemes, Ponzi Schemes, forgery you name it I did it. I found where I belong. But all good things come to an end. Eventually the apprentice surpasses the master.

            I meet Mira and everything changed. Other women I could play but not Mira she saw through all of that. I had to stop, so I got out. I wanted better for her and eventually our children. They had what I never did. But when you are the best something will come back up and bite you. Whether it is one of your own or the big bad government. It will come back that is for sure no matter who you are. I ended up getting shafted by the man who made me. It seems money is thinker than friendship.

            Now we are back were we began; with me falling at 120 miles an hour with the wind rushing past my ears. The land loomed in front of me as I fell. I remember the last smile on Mira’s face the night before Charles decided to blow up my house with my family in it. I watched as the explosion engulfed my house with everyone still in it. With what was last of my money I requested the plane for a skydive but I didn’t need the chute. But you already knew that.